Monday, Monday

Still just trying to take things day by day. I think today is the first day that I haven't cried my eyes out - so that is a good thing. I've been reading more passages and whatnot, and last nights really hit me. It just told me not to be fearful of things I might not understand, and for some reason I was so comforted by that. Tom and I had a long conversation last night about how scared I was about this whole situation. So reading that right before bedtime helped me get a good night's sleep and made today a good day.

Brendan continues to impress me every single day. I know that right now he is kind of in survival mode and that once the rehab process starts, it will be much more physical and mental work. I can't tell you how happy I am that he will be going to Craig Hospital out in Colorado. I've heard nothing but good things about that place and Brendan seems pretty excited for it too. Of course I am going to miss my family like crazy, but just knowing that Brendan is getting the best help he can get is worth not seeing them for a while. Although I'm sure Tom and I will go out and visit.

This morning I felt the baby move like crazy. I honestly think if Tom was there, he would have been able to feel it too. I forgot how much I love that feeling. My ultrasound is in 2 1/2 weeks. I really haven't even thought about it lately - today I am tempted to find out the sex, but I know when it comes down to it - we won't.

Alright, I know I need to put up a belly picture and also some pics of Jack (although, he needs a hair cut really bad - so i might wait until after we do that). Thanks for continuing to check the blog - hopefully I can get back into my routine pretty soon here and I can update you more on Jack rather than all of my sad/confused feelings.